A while back I read your site and some entries from a woman who had breast cancer and was well and in total remission. I had a reoccurrence of lymphoma and they found that the breast cancer I had has come back. Again, chemo and all the anguish I thought I had finally put behind me. What is in store for me and what more can I do?

First and foremost, before I give you the channeled response I would recommend that you see a good oncologist and follow your physician's advice on your treatment. I would also suggest that you see more than one medical specialist, perhaps your primary care physician, a doctor who specializes in the immune system, and a psychologist to help you address issues you may have suppressed as well as helping you to manage life changes and stress. The care you give yourself is vitally important to your wellness and treating your physical body is equally as important as treating your spiritual body and your psychological body.

Here is your response:

There is so much of this we see and hear of. There are many parts of you that make the oneness you have come to live out through and which has led you to this 'error.' You cannot embrace Mortal Mind and Divine Mind as 'one,' as they are in conflict with each other. You should, and we would say this gently to you, that you should treat your Divine Mind with the awareness that there is no 'error' and all that is experienced that would be of 'error' is of Mortal Mind and that pulls you away from the true self, your Divine Self. That said, dear one, at this point you must follow treatment for both.

Herein has come to manifest the lack of nurturement that you have not allowed yourself. This specific manifestation of 'error' or non-aligned thought, has to do with you NOT allowing yourself the nurturement you would give to others first. You know, as we speak of the patterns of non self-fulfillment manifested after the competition of your last 'cure.' You returned to those same non-resolved conflicts. You have lost friends and self dignity. Your family is crucial to your wellness.

Rachael's Tomb

When 'error' and now a stronger use of the word, when 'evil' comes into yourself by not allow light into your being you become lost. A person possessed of an evil eye, or errorous ways, carries with him or her, the eye, or belief, manifested though their actions, of a destroying negative force. You should be on your guard against them and not come near them or let them back into your life without first re-establishing that energy on a good foundation, so that you should not be injured by them.

By placing a red string upon your left wrist and tying it once, then seven more times, you have a reminder that you are connected to much more than yourself. This red (wool or cotton) string protects the wearer from wandering into errorous thought. The Red String protects the wearer from the influences of the negative thought.

Negativity is a very powerful force that destroys the consuming individual. Do you hear us? It refers to the unfriendly stare and unkind glances you sometimes get from people around you and the equally conflicting thoughts and behavioral outbursts of those within your home. Envious eyes and looks of ill will effect you, stopping you from realizing your full potential in every area of your life, especially in areas of self-nurturement. For how can you allow yourself to be nurtured if you do no think you are deserving of it? How can you allow yourself be receive love if it is conditional?

The vitally critical need to confront the problem of negative influences in a healthy manner cannot be underestimated. If you live in denial and you fail to understand this and activate a protective shield, or put up a wall (by over eating, self medicating, or through control issues) through this type of proactive behavior (self designed) you will eventually become a victim and that 'error' will manifest as it apparently has, again. We tell you, you can turn this around by being aware of the choices you make for when you choose to react you are responsible for the consequences you will come to know.

You can remove intrusive, negative influences and more importantly, you have the potential ability to eradicate negativity and manifested error forever! The power of "errorous, manifest thought', when understood from a spiritual perspective, becomes a powerful tool in healing.

A simple Red String can be used as a tool of protection and a reminder of the path you should choose to walk. Let us also say that if, if you have started a reconstruction process, you may want to rethink this. Yes, it would be nice to be whole again and look like you did but this is an illusion. For that part of you that manifested the 'error', if reconstructed before you become aware and healed, may be rejected. In other words what we are saying is that the breast you bare, the soul of the woman is not sound in these. For if you think they will return you to what you were, and that they would make you whole and desirable to yourself or to your partner, you may want to consider this. In entering into this thought you are admitting to yourself that there is something incomplete within you and that there is something NOT whole about you. Perhaps it would be worth considering that you should come to terms with the circumstances of your life and your self-image, first. ONCE healed and integrated, you then can go about this procedure of reconstruction. If you have started this you may want to consider removing the implants until you are healed and have addressed the issue of your life history up to this point. Let the body relax and be loved for who you are and the experience you are going though. Heal in steps, slowly and in a gentle and allowing manner.

The practice or self-centering or of remembrances were developed by the sages. This originated when Rachel died and was buried. The process involved winding a red string around the tomb of the great Matriarch, Rachel, located in the Land of Israel, the Holy Land, and the place where God touched His finger to the Earth. The string was wrapped about the structure to protect it.

The string was then cut into pieces and worn on the left wrist by the pilgrims and martyrs who cared for Rachel. The left hand is considered to be the receiving side for the body and soul. It is the side and the hand that you draw into yourself with. By wearing this Red String on your left wrist you can receive a vital connection to the protective energies surrounding the tomb of Rachel, the matriarch of all humankind. It also allows you to take Rachel's powerful protective energy with you and draw from it anytime. Rachel was one of the most pure and loving souls ever to manifest and this is why (we) view her as our matriarch.

By seeking the Light of holy persons and ascended masters such as Rachel, we can use their powerful influence to greatly assist us. Rachel represents the physical world in which we live and the energies of that world that sustain us. Her greatest desire is to protect and defend all of her children from evil and any negative influences that would harm us.

Tie a Red String to your left wrist. First tie the string closely around your wrist with a simple knot. Repeat by knotting the string six more times for a total of seven knots. While you do this promise to yourself that you will refrain from negative thoughts, gossip and talk about all others. This harmful behavior will interfere with your effort to gain personal fulfillment and protection.

It is thought that Jacob must have known that her resting place would become a destination for pilgrims and martyrs. When Rachel died on her journey, Jacob placed a pillar over her grave by the roadside and even today a pillar stands over her grave. This pillar was made of 13 stones. Each of Jacob's 12 sons placed a stone there and Jacob placed the 13th stone on top.

As you tie the red string say to yourself this, which has been said since those days of the sages:

Rachel's name is related to the Hebrew word, 'rachil', meaning a lamb or a sheep. A lamb or sheep stands still while it is being sheared by its care-giver and this interaction symbolizes humility. The lesson you should take from this is that you each must humble yourselves before God like a lamb. Place faith and trust in Divine Mind over Mortal Mind. You should submit yourself to the Will of God and recognize the beauty in yourself, as you are without rebuilding yourself before you are healed and whole, in the illusion of what you would think you should be.

Every morning, with the rising sun, a thread of grace prevails over all and God renews the world for another day. The red string symbolizes that renewed thread of grace and YOUR connection to God and Divine Mind.

So, as you can see, it is with love and a story of a great matriarch that we share of ourselves with you. You alone have the ability to re-establish your connection to the Divine and in so doing return to state of grace.

Yes, yes, we have known of and felt the anguish you have experienced in days past, moreso as we feel our way through your question. Again, we would remind you that the house you live in is an extension of your physical body that houses your soul. What occurs within those walls is a metaphor what is occurring within your physical self.

Allow yourself to love yourself. Allow yourself to heal. The problem does not lie within you, but perhaps the one(s) you live with. You alone know the foundation of your relationships and you alone know the conflicts within that relationship. There may be choices you may need to make, that of continuing in a relationship that does not sustain you. You understand of that which we speak. If this can improve then all will be well. If this does not change and improve, then again, these things will be self resolving.

You do not need another to be strong and an example for your child or children. You must set the bar, as you will, for the standards you are willing to accept within your life, and it is by how you allow that standard to manifest within your life that you will come to know the happiness you seek.

Yes, we are certain you wanted us to say unto you what you should or should not do. To take responsibly for your question and in a sense a part, even if it a small part, of your life. But this we would not do. It is YOUR life and it is up to you to make your own choices. Yes, we know. But it is not up for us to share all these knowings, but to share enough so that you can learn to make good choices. We hope this helps you and you have our love and support.

We have given you a story that you can research and learn more from, tools to redirect your thought and focus and insight into some slightly problematic areas you may want to address. But all in all, it is up to you. You can turn this around and it is our hope that you do.